God began to speak to me about international adoption while I was reading Francis Chan's Crazy Love. (A must read, by the way. It's a life-changer.) And while I was getting all excited about trusting God to do awesome things and using me in the process, He began to speak to me about some things that I've been missing. I know He wants to move me way beyond where I've been with Him, but He's shown me that if I want to be used in the big things, I need to be faithful to the small things He's put in my path. He showed me several areas where I've just been content to "drive by" people and situations, and have not been willing to really put myself out there and be the hands and feet of Jesus.
I was in the car one day after school and heard this song by Sidewalk Prophets. Turn on your speakers and listen. The words are so powerful. "Was I Love when no one else would show up? Was I Jesus to the least of us? Was my worship more than just a song?" I've had to examine my motives, my words and actions (or lack thereof), and the way I see the people around me. I need to see them with the eyes of Jesus and love like He does.
"I wanna live like that, and give it all I have, so that everything I say and do points to You!"
Where's the LIKE button on blogs? This is the cry of my heart, too. Last night I was in the ER with Elsie and as we left at midnight I found myself discourage at my own sinful heart that did not have the courage to speak to anyone else on Jesus' behalf. What an opportunity for ministry wasted.
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